i'm suicidal

i've been assaulted (verbally&sexually) by multiple men (indian men). i've been threatened and i have so much ptsd and i don't know if it will ever get better.

i can't think, breathe, or even walk (sometimes).

my body is so broken down. i don't feel safe. i just shake and cry in a ball

i hate them (both men&women). it's so much hostility and aggression i'm not going to keep "compartmentalizing"

deannawong's profile thumbnail
You need to seek help immediately. I’m not sure where you are, but there are resources if you are in the US
tanmayisai's profile thumbnail
I'm very sorry to hear you're going through this.Please use these resources to get support:Free 24/7 resources: - IF you're in the US, use the suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 - Crisis Text line: - US and Canada: 741741 - UK 85258 - If you are outside these countries, please message using Facebook: https://www.crisistextline.org/Depending on where you are located, here is an additional list of resources:- Crisis hotlines around the world: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines- Whatsapp resources to use: https://faq.whatsapp.com/general/security-and-privacy/global-suicide-hotline-resources/?lang=enI'd encourage you to use the resources wherever you are located as soon as possible.
teresaman's profile thumbnail
First of all, I'm very very sorry that you're going through a hard time. I think your feelings are real and being asked to compartmentalized or feeling like you have to suppress them is always easier said than done.I hope you're able to seek support and help where you are. I'm adding another resource to the list (an online chat): https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/I've also personally used 7 cups of Tea https://www.7cups.com/
It will get better. Please seek help. Be kind to yourself. Those people who assaulted you “took” from you but you’ll be okay. Change environments if you can. Talk to someone you trust. Cry as much as you need to, but work towards being strong again. Sending you so much love.
sadafr's profile thumbnail
It will get better. I know it sounds easy for someone to say, but as someone who has been in a similar emotional state to you in my life, even when you think there's no hope and you feel like your life is playing out in front of you and you have no control over it, things do get better. Just take it one step at a time, and get yourself the help that you both need and deserve. Wherever you are, someone is here to help, and if you want someone to help signpost you to local resources, just message me and we'll make a plan.
Sending love, please seek help, online if you're not comfortable in person. If you feel able to comment back on what country you're based in I'm sure we can as a group try to help with local recommendations?
truechimera's profile thumbnail
Nakia,Please seek help. There are a lot of organizations that can help. If you are in the bay area https://maitri.org is an organization that works with South Asian women. No one is more important than you and that means you need to take care of yourself and make sure that you are surrounded by a support system that will help you over this immensely difficult period in your life. Its ok to get help and its ok to let yourself be taken care of..