I have been harboring this sense lately that when I cannot protect my boundaries, I am removing myself further from my best self. From the version of me that feels aligned with who I truly am. I’ve been reflecting on this the past few weeks, as my life has become more chaotic.
Our family has been sick on loop for three months. Work is demanding - I’m doing a ton of context-switching. My husband recently had knee surgery and is pretty much immobilized. Which is like having three kids and being a single parent. Plus, we’re going through a super big transition, which I don’t even want to name so as not to jinx it.
How do you think I’m doing on my most valued boundaries and commitments to myself? Yeah, not so great. Barely made it to the park even once last week. I’m not sleeping enough, so I'm also not working out enough. With my mental and emotional bandwidth stretched to the limit, I’m snappier with the kids. Getting pulled in so many directions means I rarely feel present in the moment - in my body or interactions. It feels like I am defrauding myself.
I've been taking some steps to get back to feeling aligned - got some help for the house, took a personal day at work today, went to the park, and cheered myself into going for a run. Feeling better.
But I'm still curious how are others dealing with those moments (sometimes really looooooong moments)? What do you do? How do you talk to yourself? What is most helpful to you?
BTW I wrote about it on substack, in case interesting for you to follow my attempts at living in the present moment (LOL given my past few weeks) with a weekly dose of vulnerable writing... https://ambleday.substack.com/p/can-someone-please-fence-me-in