I started working in Recruitment in 2018 - long story short, I loved how hard I had to work and prove myself. Initially, I was on a temp contract as a resourcer and quickly progressed up to trainee consultant and finally, just before the pandemic, got my job title as consultant which was conditional on my learning to drive. Over furlough, I became anxious about going back there. People around me told me they were treating my poorly with low pay and had strung me along for the last 18-months. I started to doubt my position, my parents were hounding me about working for them, so I handed in my notice and went to work for my parents. I hated that, so joined an internal recruitment team in Healthcare 2 months later and I have been there (unhappily) ever since.
Now, I feel miserable and that I don't want to work. I have grown to hate the work, it's a VERY small office for 5 people which only highlights the toxic atmosphere.
My question is, HOW do you know what you want to do? What am I doing wrong to feel miserable wherever I go? I want to work hard, and I want to care about what I do but for the last year, I have got very little interest in work and very little drive for work! Part of me misses my original job, it wasn't perfect but am I missing it because I feel like it's a get-out-of-jail-free card or because I miss it for the right reasons?
Has anyone experienced this before? Is there any advice anyone can offer?