After Working at Google, I’ll Never Let Myself Love a Job Again

"Saying anything about his behavior meant challenging the story we told ourselves about Google being so special. The company anticipated our every need — nap pods, massage chairs, Q-Tips in the bathroom, a shuttle system to compensate for the Bay Area’s dysfunctional public transportation — until the outside world began to seem hostile. Google was the Garden of Eden; I lived in fear of being cast out.When I talked to outsiders about the harassment, they couldn’t understand: I had one of the sexiest jobs in the world. How bad could it be? I asked myself this, too. I worried that I was taking things personally and that if anyone knew I was upset, they’d think I wasn’t tough enough to hack it in our intense environment."---Posted by CM @iynna
I'm glad more folks are speaking about their experiences at these huge companies. The toxicity is happening so much more often than you think.
Thanks for sharing, what a powerful article."After my leave, the manager I loved started treating me as fragile."I had a similar experience in a past workplace. After I called out a toxic environment, things indeed changed and improved over time, but certain people stopped talking to me about anything challenging (hello, we're designers/engineers, we NEED to be able to cordially disagree sometimes!), and I stopped being given more responsibility and growing professionally. I lost a lot of social capital because I "couldn't stand the heat".I'm still glad I did it. People shouldn't have to work in "burning buildings":) But speaking out comes with a price for sure.
Heartbreaking. I'm reminded of the absolute pit in my stomach when leaving companies that touted "We are family," "We are transparent," "Be honest and thoughtful and we'll work with you." It's really hurtful when you realize it's a lie. What leadership says and how they actually act is often very different. Getting shut out in subtle ways while everyone is saying how collaborative the team is, etc. And so, I have a similar philosophy to never love a job as more than a job.
Was thinking of this again recently after encountering a dishonest job recruitment practice from those who claim to have "empathy"Appalling what she had to go through, and many do, more transparency will feed justice. I had my dream job to nightmare a few years ago so I've learned to be passionate about my mission and the outcomes I want to see in society vs being passionate about a particular job/sector, it helps when such nonsense happens.