I'm at a loss what to do and would love some perspective if anyone has any similar experience. I can't decide if I should leave my job or not. The pay and the freedom are really fantastic. However, I just had my annual review and my boss totally blindsided me with his perception of my contribution to the company.
Now, I understood the feedback and I can take criticism and agreed that I completely recognize that I do have things to work on in terms of balancing all of the components of my job. I work in-house for a growing vacation rental company. I was employee #3 and started out by helping with reservations, operations, and doing what I could in terms of marketing when there was still time left. I cover a lot of areas and we continued to grow as a new company. I adapted to everything they threw at me. I thought I was see as a valuable asset with my wide variety of skills and roles I held here. I now am more focused less on day to day guest operations but I still fulfill duties in marketing as a one-person team, do back-end operations, and now they said I am supposed to take on project management tasks. My boss stated that due to one very large project going on for 10 months when he wanted it done a long time ago that he wasn't seeing my value in the company and doesn't know what I do all day if I didn't manage to get this project done. (The project was huge and ever-evolving with his specific requests. There is no software that exists currently to fulfill everything we are looking for). I understand I should have been more clear that's why it was dragging out. But here we are. I brought in $300k in revenue with ads I ran.
I self teach everything because my boss has never actually held a job in digital marketing. I feel like I have to explain my own job every time I see him and that I'm just flat out not going to learn anything with this mindset and having no one else to learn from. Am I just taking this review too personally?
I'll add that he ended the review with still wanting to pay me more. They are having me structure my own commission rate and want it to exceed my pay from last year. Does he value me or not?! It's driving me nuts. I feel extremely confused.