I have been giving a lot of interviews lately.
It has been a high stress job and poor performance ratings this time. So, my time investment into career has helped neither my health, personal life or my career. I believe the ratings are due to the job not being a good culture fit for me. I have received glowing peer feedback and maintain positive resourceful relations with my peers and stakeholders.
Unfortunately, I have been having the worst time with interviews. I hate being negative this way. But, it is taking a toll on me. Took some time off to prep. But It is not showing. I forget a couple of key points in the interview. I find it challenging to be thorough, think of test cases and complete the coding problem in time. Different interviewers are looking for different things - some for any working solution, some for production level code, some for optimization, some for thorough testing of test cases. I freeze during system design because I am afraid of not saying what the interviewer wants me to.
My behavioral is usually great. Tech deep dive is good too. Sometimes, I get the feeling that in an attempt to simplify and have people understand my work, I might be making it seem small and insignificant. I am also looking for senior roles, so this is not good.
I fear I might be fired anytime. Would love to have an interview prep buddy who can mock interview with me and brainstorm solutions.