No Career, No Direction despite some experiences.
Hello.I'm very confused and am not sure how to proceed with going back to work, finding work, and career development. Some background:- was in marketing/advertising as a media operations / billing associate; it was a role to get into strategic planning but that never came to fruition - finished Full stack engineering bootcamp in 2018 to change careers- got a contract job with possible hire a few weeks later- contract ended in July 2019; didn't get hired- did not have work from July 2019 - Dec 2019 (son's birth) to focus on my pregnancy and prepare for birth- chose to stay home for the first year to care for my son; the year is coming to an end soon.The first year is ending soon and I'm looking for work. I'm getting anxiety as I feel that I am starting all over again. I feel and know that I don't have a career. Seemed to never have had one since the very beginning of me working. I'm looking for front end developer or UI developer roles but I feel like I'm not skilled enough to apply or even get an interview. Even if I do get a position, I'll doubt myself even further as I think I won't meet expectations. I think that's what happened with the contract position. They hired a new upper management person and he decided he didn't want to keep me. It really hurt. I'm trying to get some practice back in but I'm unable to as I'm with my son the whole day.I'm rushing to find a new job because I have my student loans to pay for starting in January since there was a pause placed by the government for Covid. I'm not sure about child care as I need to know where I'm working first to determine daycare locations and such. My husband is a teacher so he's been teaching from home since the quarantine. He may have to go back physically in January. If I didn't have my student loans, I could be a SAHM.I'm scared and at a lost. No career, no finances (my husband supports us, but I can't rely on him all the time), and no direction. Has anyone experience a similar situation and had a successful outcome?Thank you for listening/reading.